Ch. 13. II. 4 – 7. Jesus: “Much of the ego’s strange behavior is directly attributable to its definition of guilt. To the ego, the guiltless are guilty! Those who do not attack are its ‘enemies’ because, by not valuing its faulty interpretation, they are in an excellent position to just let guilt go.
They have approached the darkest and deepest cornerstone in the ego’s foundation, and while the ego can withstand your raising all else to question, it guards this one secret with its life, for its continued existence depends on keeping this secret. So it is this secret that we must look upon, for the ego cannot protect you against truth, and in its presence the ego is dispelled.
In the calm light of truth, let us recognize that you believe you have crucified God’s Son. You have not admitted to this ‘terrible secret’ because, if you could find God’s Son, you would still wish to crucify him! Yet the very wish has hidden him from you because it is quite fearful, making you actually afraid to find him. You have handled this wish to kill your real self by ‘not knowing’ who you really are, and identifying with something else, the ego.
You have projected guilt blindly and indiscriminately, but you still experience the guilt because you have not uncovered its source. For the ego does want to kill you, the real you, and if you identify with the ego you must believe its goal is yours. I have said already that the crucifixion is the symbol of the ego doing away with the Son. In this world when the ego was confronted with the real guiltlessness of God’s Son, it did attempt to kill him, and the reason it gave was that his demonstration of guiltlessness was ‘blasphemous to God!’ To the ego then, the ego is God, and guiltlessness must be interpreted as the ‘final sin’ against it that fully justifies murder.
Perhaps you do not yet understand that any fear you may experience in connection with this course stems ultimately from this misinterpretation of guiltlessness, but if you will carefully consider your reactions to the course, you will become increasingly convinced that this is so.
This course has explicitly stated that its goal for you is happiness and peace. Yet at times you seem to be afraid of it. You have been told again and again that it will set you free, yet you sometimes react as if it is trying to imprison you. You often dismiss its teachings of forgiveness more readily than you dismiss the ego’s judgments and condemnation. To some extent, then, as you continue to identify with the ego, you must believe that by not learning this course you are protecting yourself! And you do not realize that it is only your guiltlessness that can protect you!”